I lost my grandpa Blain. 6 months before he passed my grandma Blain passed and grandpa didnt want to go on without her. He made that very clear. I remember a couple of days before he passed we were all up at the hospital and he opened his eyes and said "I just saw grandma and she is waiting for me." This immediatly brought tears to my eyes. Right then and there is when I knew he wasnt going to keep fighting. He missed the love of his life sooo much!
Really quickly - I just want to thank Cameron again for being my support - when my grandpa was in the hospital he was right by my side minutes after getting his wisdom teeth pulled. He couldnt talk and he was swollen beyond belief but he wanted to be there for me. I told him numerous times I was going to take him home and he would put up a fight. You really couldnt understand what he was saying because of the gauze in his mouth but his facial impression and hand actions made it all clear hahaha. Even when grandma passed Cameron spent countless hours comforting me and being my rock. So thank you Cameron. For EVERYTHING!
This is one thing I regret more then anything and I always will...
After grandma passed I didnt get over to visit my grandpa as much as I should have. Just the whole mood there was depressing - I wanted to walk into their house and see my grandma burning something at the stove and my grandma yelling at her haha. When I did get the chance to visit my grandpa he would just talk about how much he misses my grandma and how he wants to be with her. I will never forgive myself for not going over and visiting more after my grandma died. I just hope my grandpa understands the reasoning for it. It wasnt because I didnt want to see him, because I did. It was because I didnt want him to see me hurting and I knew that the minute he started talking about grandma I would start crying. To this day I just have my moments where I start bawling my eyes out - ask Cameron. Either something happens that reminds me of them or I just start thinking of old memories!
I miss them both every single day. Not a day goes by where I dont wish I could just stop in and visit!There are so many things I want to tell them. I need to stop being selfish and realize that they are so happy where they are and that they are watching down on me every single day!
Really quickly - I just want to thank Cameron again for being my support - when my grandpa was in the hospital he was right by my side minutes after getting his wisdom teeth pulled. He couldnt talk and he was swollen beyond belief but he wanted to be there for me. I told him numerous times I was going to take him home and he would put up a fight. You really couldnt understand what he was saying because of the gauze in his mouth but his facial impression and hand actions made it all clear hahaha. Even when grandma passed Cameron spent countless hours comforting me and being my rock. So thank you Cameron. For EVERYTHING!
This is one thing I regret more then anything and I always will...
After grandma passed I didnt get over to visit my grandpa as much as I should have. Just the whole mood there was depressing - I wanted to walk into their house and see my grandma burning something at the stove and my grandma yelling at her haha. When I did get the chance to visit my grandpa he would just talk about how much he misses my grandma and how he wants to be with her. I will never forgive myself for not going over and visiting more after my grandma died. I just hope my grandpa understands the reasoning for it. It wasnt because I didnt want to see him, because I did. It was because I didnt want him to see me hurting and I knew that the minute he started talking about grandma I would start crying. To this day I just have my moments where I start bawling my eyes out - ask Cameron. Either something happens that reminds me of them or I just start thinking of old memories!
I miss them both every single day. Not a day goes by where I dont wish I could just stop in and visit!There are so many things I want to tell them. I need to stop being selfish and realize that they are so happy where they are and that they are watching down on me every single day!
The first time I heard this song - I was a wreck.
Justin Moore nailed it - every word is true.
If you have never heard this song - take a minute and listen to it!
But be sure you have a tissue near because if you have lost someone super close to you it will make you cry!
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